stupid holiday

i hate this holiday... everyday stay at home.. wanna work.. daddy say no.. now not working.. mummy 'bo song'.. walao.. what you want me to do??

watch tv.. mummy scold.. play pc.. mummy say nanti eyes spoilt.. sms.. mummy say 'you doing big business ar??'.. then what you want me to do?? you tell me la!!!! i stay at home.. you say i lazy.. i go station ask you what can i help.. then you say nothing.. i chat with you.. you say you wanna read paper.. then???

go kitchen help you.. you say no need.. continue watching tv.. you scold 'why nobody come help me??'.. i really don't understand.. i say i want go travel.. you give 'sour face'.. then now daddy say go together.. you say you all don't wanna go de.. you all go because of me and i not appreciate.. i'm going crazy.. i rather go back study.. or you just let me masuk hospital.. i think better masuk hospital then hear you grumble... or just let me die la.. i rather die.. now i dunno what to do.. do like that cannot.. do the other way also cannot..

let me die la.. i hate this holiday.. stupid holiday.. i can't relax.. it only make my mood worse... sigh..

drunk

last sat.. drink with dad at home.. until i get drunk... drink lots that night.. wanna forget all those thing that needed to forget... watch video with my family.. watch how we sing and dance when we're kids.. no stress.. no trouble.. so nice.. but too bad.. time can't reverse.. really had a good laugh that night..

am drunk till i can't walk straight.. lol.. but the feeling is good.. lazy to think.. and that's what i want.. but the sad thing is when i wake up the other morning.. i remember everything.. and the problem still there.. haha.. still have to face it..

sigh.. drink only relieve for that night.. but hurt my liver and other organs.. really not worth.. but i guess i'm in love with that feeling..

boring day

what a boring and hot day... after finish lecture.. i slept for a while and i watch movie for the whole day.. really dunno what am i doing.. everybody is studying but i'm so relax.. sigh..

read email just now.. saw some characteristic about zodiac.. may be it's true.. i'm a bit passive... sigh.. what to do?? born to be like that ma.. ~~